Frustrations and questions: my MINT9 experience

For some people, the 9th Manila Intervarsity was like any other debate tournament. It may have been slower than most, and there may have been some delays, but when haven’t there been delays? They’re part and parcel of the local tournament experience.

Not so, if you’re behind the scenes and seeing how things actually fuck up monumentally. Since this is a safe space –though naturally nothing in the Internet is safe, I plead to your humanity to reserve judgement on me–, I’d like to vent and hypothetically cry.

Disclaimer: I carry part of the blame.

And for my readers out there who don’t understand what I’m saying or who don’t know how collegiate debate works, skip this post. I’ve got happier things to post about in the future. Or maybe treat this post as an extended, unanswered MBA case.

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the mint9 fam! minus people who went to lb/thesis work/etc

Frustration #1. The Basics of Adjudicating.

I’ve always wanted to be an adjudicator. Not gonna lie, it was a dream of mine to enter a debate room, Starbucks in hand, ready to pass rational judgment on the hopes of would-be champions. Naturally, my Starbucks had already melted by the time Round 1 of MINT began, but the rest could have still applied without any trouble. I was excited. It took me literal years before UPMDC trusted me with decision-making (joke lang pls).

But I think my positive valuation of the “adj career” or “adj track” is rarer than I’d like. I feel like people put more premium on being a debater, as if there’s a clear hierarchy to the myriad of ways humanity can express complex thought. And this perception has led to a less-than-competitive adj pool.

When we, as the Adj Core, first saw the CVs of the people judging the tournament, we were vaguely worried. There were only 22 or so people with solid resumes to their names. The rest were functional novices. We said, okay. Let’s have a short adj briefing to get everyone acclimatized. A good and competitive adj pool makes a tournament healthy.

During the two-hour delay to the start of Day 1, we had enough time to give an adj briefing and ask for any questions. Naturally, we only got one or two questions and not much else.

Rules of collegiate debating that should have been cemented in people’s minds include:

  • Giving a speaker score within the range of 67 to 83
  • Giving a reply speaker score within the range of 33.5 to 41.5
  • Not giving low-point wins
  • Averaging the score of the panel, excluding the scores of the minority
  • If there was a 2-man panel, the score of the Chair would be doubled
  • Voting as a panel, instead of giving a consensus
  • It’s okay to use a calculator and scratch paper

It is sombering to note that all of these mistakes were evident in Round 1, and some (like the speaker range) extended up to Round 3. By Round 2, reports were coming in of judges having a consensus. And sometimes, it’s not even about clearcut mistakes. How is it possible that a single speaker, seen through the eyes of three different adjudicators in the same round, get such drastically different scores, ranging from a 74 to an 80? Where’s the credibility in that?

Is it possible that our current adjudicators have different rules when they train, and that’s why our tournament rules were so hard to follow? Isn’t it necessarily standardized by the national tournaments in every season?

Problems like these could be fixed if people would just ask. But apparently there were reports that both runners and the tab team would demand for the minority score (apparently it is needed by the system, though it is really irrelevant to the grand scheme of things), confusing the ballot even further.

Would simple communication have solved this better?

Looking back, I think that’s where I failed. I should have included everyone, including the Tab Team, into the adj briefing, instead of assuming that everyone would follow the standard tournament rules. I should have also thought of a contingency. But as someone whose last experience in organizing a tournament was the 8th MINT, I quite forgot that such errors could even exist.

Frustration #2. No Checks.

In the busy scheme of things, as an individual, it’s easy to overlook one thing over the other. When it’s a team of people, however, you’d expect someone to speak out when something’s obviously wrong.

But there wasn’t anything of the sort. The reason why we dropped the tab system mid-tournament, and later the reason why the Adj Core manually backtabbed the tournament Saturday night, was because of persisting irregularities in the existing tab.

After we announced the adj breaks in front of everyone –at 9 or 10PM– we looked at the team breaks and had to stop after announcing the first breaking team. There was a 130 point difference between the total speaker scores of the first breaking team and the second. No matter how you slice it, that wasn’t possible.

We eventually found the final team ranks to be different from their initial ranking, at literally every point.

And I remember wondering why no one bothered to correct the input of grades beyond the 67 to 83 range. I looked at the current tab and saw that some formulas didn’t include the reply speeches. I was so mad. How could anyone accept these scores as legitimate? Now we had to scramble to correct before the announcement of breaks.

I wondered, hysterically laughing, why it became my responsibility to call up judges at 12AM Saturday night, asking what they meant by a reply speaker score of 32. I wondered why we had to call up Chairs and panelists, asking for an explanation to their mistakes. Thank god there was pizza.

It was also only during this backtabbing that we belatedly found that some teams gave ‘1’ to their adjudicators, raising a conflict. I had to thank the stars no one received a judge they already conflicted the round before, by sheer luck and happenstance.

And was it even possible to catch some mistakes? Recently a team raised a concern –they were supposed to have won the third round, since that was what everyone in the room, debaters and adjudicators alike, knew. Everyone, that is, except the ballot, which they incorrectly filled out by switching the team and speaker names between Aff and Neg. How can a mistake like this happen? Did both teams fill it out, realizing nothing was wrong? Did the judges not notice at all? Was this a mistake I could have caught? Anyone?

What’s frustrating is that even with my background in editing and spreadsheets, I’m not a machine, and neither are the rest of the Adj Core or Jeca. It feels like a cop out to say that I was neither trained nor prepared for manual tabbing. But it was past midnight after a long day. This meant that there would be mistakes, and even up to my third backtabbing I might still find an error (see Disclaimer). And I’m so, so sorry to everyone that were disenfranchised by my mistakes.

I’m trying to look for a silver lining.

Good Things #1. The Adj Core.

But I can safely say that this Adj Core –Andrei, Gino, Jason and Reine– is the best Adj Core I’ve ever been with. Naturally, it’s my first time being part of an Adj Core. I thought we were doing so well when we finished all motion sets two days in advance of the tournament.

There’s also something to be said about trying to rationalize mistakes in the dead of the night that just breaks all the ice. They’re like new friends! Who I’ve known before! I think.

Good Things #2. The OrgComm.

There were so many constraints to the competition, the first being the giant sinkhole in UP Manila. I’m incredibly proud of the OrgComm for pushing through, though there were necessary risks and costs. Bless us that there weren’t any more serious traffic accidents.

Thank you for the cake. I’ve been comforting myself with Mary Grace ever since.

And naturally thank you to my friends –Maryan, Jeca, Mort– who aren’t necessarily part of the OrgComm, but who were there when it counted. Specifically in The Shitstorm version ???.

Good Things #3. The Rounds and the People.

I did like the motions (duh). And more importantly, I’m heartened by the people who say that the motion sets were good. I sincerely hope you lot weren’t just paying us lip service.

Congratulations, naturally, to the winners and top contenders of this tournament. Every year, the novices get better and better. (Seriously, during my MINT novice year, I wasn’t anywhere near their caliber.)

In the end, the Manila Intervarsity had always been envisioned as a tournament that would bridge the gap between older and younger generations. Whatever the case, I feel like we did accomplish that in many respects. There’s nothing like trial by fire and injustice to light the passion and keep it burning.

how am i in the same category as these people rip


I look forward to more efforts to generate more efficient tournaments on the parts of everyone. Maybe this would mean a community which values adjudicators and tournament briefings, debaters who would more carefully wield their power to score judges and who would be more careful in filling out ballots, judges who would stay within the range and calculate responsibly, and tab teams that would more closely align with the tournament and would come prepared with contingency plans.

For now, I’m looking forward to tomorrow, this weekend, and this summer. And also to the baby I’ll be greeting tomorrow in the labour room (assuming I wake up on time!)

Is this the most condescending, self-affirming post you’ve ever seen? Unfortunately I am tired enough to be unapologetic.

Officially signing out until some other error crops up,



This has been a scheduled post.

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Another year of art, wine and life. A dump of my favorite picks. (Favorites from last year and from some other time.)

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Hey HK 2017!

I resolved to be more punctual this year. Good thing I didn’t set a deadline for this travel post.

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Since this is a pretty belated post, my sister beat me to blogging about the details (check out her post here). And I may or may not be too lazy to be as comprehensive.

But I can still say a few things:

  1. On our first day in HK, my sister said that it was already her fifth time in Hong Kong (this trip was my third). My brother chimed in that he’s been to HK seven times before. And my mother swept the floor by saying she’s been to Hong Kong at least fifty times, which is ridiculous and also amazing. Apparently, way back in the late 80s or 90s or so, HK was the production powerhouse in Asia. If my mom wanted her commercials/TV advertisements edited with new technology, she had to fly out to Hong Kong for post-production because Manila was still behind the times. Cool.
  2. Surprise? Every time someone asked me last semester if I had any plans over the break, I would shrug and say nothing. I planned to bum out. But lo and behold, my mom suddenly bought tickets to HK maybe 2 weeks before we flew out. Thank you, mom. Though it’s not entirely coming from the left field, since my mom had mentioned wanting to celebrate New Year abroad before.
  3. Going back to a country you’ve been to before is weird, in the sense that you’d expect more familiarity with the places, commute, language etc. But nope. I was still in full on tourist mode. Maybe it’s because the last time I went in 2013, I just went where my family took me. Now I know how to read a map and use Google and everything.


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In Pictures: And Here We Have 87 Glittering National Costumes of Miss Universe!

Miss Universe has been entertaining me the last few days. I still haven’t watched the National Costumes Event on YT, but it’s queued up! (Why am I not studying?)

Best costumes imo, in alphabetical order:
(Best = unique, eye-catching, representative)
1. Argentina
2. British Virgin Islands
3. Czech Republic
4. Dominican Republic!!
5. Ecaudor
6. India
7. Indonesia
8. Myanmar
9. Panama
10. Philippines
11. Thailand
12. Singapore
13. Sri Lanka
14. Venezuela
15. Vietnam!!
I am South East Asian trash! Haha.
And I feel like I need to comment on the costumes of Austria, Canada, Israel, Germany, Malaysia, Netherlands, Sweden… they took the word “costume” to heart.

The Kaleidoscope of Pageantry

Miss Universe 2016: National Costume Round

Every country has a glorious past and stories untold, and to bring those untold stories in a glorified way is the task of the beauty queen when she is representing her country in the most accomplished platform of the world, the Miss Universe pageant.

After a power packed swimsuit and evening gown preliminary competition, the eighty seven delegates competing for the ultimate title of Miss Universe showcased their country’s rich ethnicity and culture via their grand and uniquely carved national costumes. So what are we waiting for, let’s have a look at the beautiful National Costumes-

Miss Universe 2016 will be the 65th edition of Miss Universe pageant. Miss Universe 2016 is slated to take place on January 30, 2017 in Manila, Philippines. This year more than 80 countries will compete for the title of Miss Universe 2016, hoping to be crowned by Pia…

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basket of angry and mute kittens

silence speaks nothing --

To be consumed by words until they come stumbling out, 
arranged and resonant, 
unwilling to bow to the closure of strict lips. What is that? Where is it-- 
I've written copies, and rallies, and letters YET none of the words 
that reside in me have my heart, and I'm---


I've never known fear like 
the fear that I have of the words inside me. I don't know what they look like. 
Amorphous, greedy, vicious things
I fear that if I write, if I speak, if in another sentence I play out a new stanza, 
If I dare
I fear the truth will come out. WHAT DO I LOOK LIKE HONEST good lord

I fear the truth of --loneliness?-- frustration, listlessness. A cacophony of longing 
that has no name and no purpose; I can feel everything raging under my skin 
like a quiet storm, a knot in a maze in a forest
woosh woosh woosh 
Outside the wild listlessness 
fades into a practiced nonchalance. Words can't unravel if the words 
are too honest, and all my letters are honest. I keep them in.

Through a mirror: I am indifferent, and silent, and sleepy. whispers

I fear that the who that I built outside will be consumed by the monsters 
that are growing in the peripheries! 
shades drawn, battle lines marked 
fighting myself by burning the war
suffocate drown and asphyxiate my self

Another lie, another half-truth. statement
I fear what I have in me; I fear that there is nothing in me at all. 

What if I can't write or paint or speak because there are 
no monsters in the deep?
No colors in the wind, no female mysteries, no hysteric soliloquies 
A new model! An automaton of motions, everything but nothing at the same time
Outrageous for the price of fun:
number not available!!!

Motions upon motions
Unfeigned confusion
"           "
relaxation, elevation, escalation

In what scenario will I start to write the entries that define my meaning:
Denial death dusk depressed
by myself

Shut up! Stop! Speaking! BE SILENT be silent be silent be silent 
until the silence starts screaming
without me


This isn’t a cry for help. It’s a………………n exercise in trying to write again OTL. And I wrote this earlier while eating in Market Basket! Good shrimp and good salmon!

In other news, my sister’s in Korea (and I gave her a cool list of things to buy for me). I’m still here, not studying for my GIN exam on Tuesday. :o

I want to write about so many other things: how much I’m following Miss Universe, how I loved our graded physical examination earlier this week, how I’ve got secrets piled upon secrets. Some other time.




Intraperitoneal organs and Retroperitoneal organs

Confessions of a Medical Student

For the Intraperitoneal organs remember SALTD SPRSS (Pronounced Salted Spursss):

S = Stomach

A = Appendix

L = Liver

T = Transverse colon

D = duodenum (only the 1st part, though)

S = Small intestines

P = Pancreas (only the tail though)

R = Rectum (only the upper 3rd)

S = Sigmoid colon

S = Spleen

For retroperitoneal, just remember SADPUCKER:

S = suprarenal glands

A = Aorta and IVC

D = Duodenum (all but the 1st part)

P = Pancreas (all but the tail)

U = Ureter and bladder

C = Colon (ascending and descending)

K = Kidneys

E = Esophagus

R = Rectum (Lower two-thirds)

For secondarily retroperitoneal remember ‘Pussy Cat Dolls“:

P = Pancreas

C = Colon (only ascending and descending)

D = Duodenum (only parts 2-4)

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I’m now a figure skating fan (thanks to anime)

My holiday break could be defined simply: unproductive, probably fattening, and also consumed by this groundbreaking popular anime called Yuri!!! On Ice.


Plot summary After suffering a crushing defeat during the Grand Prix of Figure Skating Final and other failed showings at other skating competitions, Yuri Katsuki develops mixed feelings about ice skating and puts his career on hiatus, going to college in Detroit and later returning to his hometown of Hasetsu in Kyushu. He visits his childhood friend Yuko at an ice rink known as “Ice Castle Hasetsu” and perfectly mimics an advanced skating routine performed by famous Russian figure skater Victor Nikiforov, who is Yuri’s idol. When secretly recorded footage of Yuri’s performance is uploaded to the internet, it catches the attention of Victor, who travels to Kyushu and offers to coach Yuri and restart his figure skating career. Together with Victor, Yuri aims to win the ISU Grand Prix of Figure Skating series as he battles against his rival, Yuri Plisetsky, a 15-year-old rising star skater from Russia.

In my humble opinion, this anime has taken the figure skating world by storm. Famous figure skaters like Evgenia Medvedeva and our very own Michael Martinez have professed to being fans; and now droves of figure skating newbies like me are following the sport as it goes. And for good reason.

It’s hard to define what makes Yuri!! On Ice so special. It’s well-written, true, and the animation of the key skating routines is breathtaking. Maybe it’s in the characters and their relationships (which, to be fair, is the heart of almost any anime). Maybe it’s in the showcase of both racial and sexual diversity.

Yuri!!! On Ice is a story of how people can gain confidence and love for themselves in the face of crippling anxiety and self-doubt. It’s a story of how success can sometimes drive depression and isolation, and how relationships can bloom through adversity. It’s a story of life and love.

how YOI kind of changed my life, aka I am now following this sport

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I can’t believe I’m posting my greeting late. Haha! But believe me: I’ll put more effort in being a more punctual person this year.

I spent new year in Hong Kong, watching some spectacular fireworks. How about you? Hope your New Year’s Eve was just as good!

(Unfortunately we can’t say the same for Ms. Mariah Carey.)

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The quest to clear out the 2016 queue continues!


I love Thailand!!! So much!!! After Japan (and the Philippines, of course), Thailand is my favorite country in Asia.

It’s like a bigger and more advanced Manila. The weather’s largely the same (a bit cooler, I think). But the metro’s so functional and the highways had less traffic. And the shopping! I want to go back every year just to buy clothes.

And, as always, thank you to my mom for funding this trip.

In Thailand, we lost:

  • Money while shopping in Pratunam and eating all the food (seriously, I only had THB100 to spend the last day)
    • It was only when I got back to Manila that my mom stated the obvious: I could have used my credit card all along. Ha!
  • Our way… AT LEAST THRICE:
    • Our cabbie (I think going from Bangkok to Bangna) couldn’t find our hotel or even the correct exit from the highway, so we spent 30 nauseating minutes going around U-turns. Tip to future self: Invest in a Thai phone number, and contact the hotel ASAP when something like this happens.
    • Our tuktuk driver drove us through Chulalongkorn University unnecessarily, though I’m not sure if he ripped us off or he genuinely didn’t know where to take us.
    • And on foot, we couldn’t find the flower market. Damn that flower market. 
  • My chance at being called anything more than an Asian Octofinalist. Too soon? Too soon.

But at least we got photos (80% of which were of food/us eating). Top of my things-to-do-in-Thailand was finding the most photogenic plate of Pad Thai; I think I nailed it.

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College Graduation!!!

Well here’s a long overdue post.

Last May? 2016, I graduated from college with a Bachelor’s Science in Biology. I’d like to thank my mother, fam, friends, thesis partner, professors and the UP Manila community at large. And, of course, the Filipino people.

I didn’t post about it so much because it wasn’t the end-all be-all of my life. Graduating from college, while an achievement in itself that my mother and I should definitely be proud of, is only a step towards the greater dream of becoming a doctor.

So here’s a 1-minute Snapchat video.

  1. We stayed in Microtel for my college graduation in UP Diliman, and in Shangri-la for the university graduation in PICC.
  2. I don’t actually have a lot of photos of the event; I also haven’t bothered to scan any of the official documentation.
  3. Thank you to my Lola Doppie and to other members of the extended fam for celebrating with us.

It feels like a lifetime ago.